So much to say....but some of it I just can't right now.

I have missed blogging. It has been so long. I am not sure why I even think it would interest people. I am not the greatest writer at all!

However, here in the Maw house life has been blessed. It is amazing the things that God is doing! Things that have been unanswered are becoming more and more clear. We are understanding Gods direction more and more daily! I am so blessed to have a Godly husband that is in turn with the voice of the Lord. He truly leads us in the direction of the Lord. Now, grant it...I don't always want to agree with him. I guess that is just be being stubborn by nature...I just blame it on the maiden name, LOL. But, more times than not he is RIGHT...yep folks I said it. Those of you that know us should get a chuckle out of that....hehehehe.

We have some things in our home that is about to take place...some of which I can't share at this time. The time will come and we will need every one's prayers and support!

We have been enjoying the fall weather...(when it feels like fall (: ) We took the kids to Skytop a few weeks ago. I was going to post some of those pics today...but realized I haven't uploaded them just yet. So, you will have to just hang tight for those.

My prayer for each of you today is that you hold on to your vision. It may not come just right when you think it should...But when you remain faithful you will see it! Stay faithful to God....I love you all and many blessings to you all!

I Am Back!!!

WOW!!!! It has been a while.... I am back. I will update pics soon! Gah, still can't get over how long its been!

Ok...it has been a while! My bad!

Wow I didn't realized it had been a month since I had blogged! Alot has happened since then. Ray has been back from Germany now for over a week. The kids were soooo happy to see him. They made a poster to take with them to the airport. It was so sweet! I has been nice having him back home!

Last Tuesday we had court for Jordyn to terminate mom's rights. Long story....but we didn't get in that day due to the case that was going on that morning (totally not involved with her in anyway) was still going on! SO...we are on for June now! We are still believing and praying for this to be over soon! I won't go into a lot of details on here for many reasons!

Ray still hasn't got to see Samuel play a Soccer game yet. The Saturday he got home the game was canceled due to the rain. Now they don't play again til next Tuesday. Next week we are going to take Samuel to the Y to let him see if he maybe interested in Swim Team. He took lessons last year and loved it. They open the team up to 4yr olds....so we are going to give it a try!

I am very worried about my little sister! She has pushed herself away from me.....as she often does! This hurts so much. Maybe part of it is my fault...cause I am so motherly to her. I just want her to do right and succeed in life. She is so easily influenced and that is very scary. Just remember her in your prayers.

We are in the middle of still trying to decide and get peace about buying/building. We sold our house 2yrs ago and was given my mother in laws single wide. We moved it to my parents land. Our goal was to save money and get debt free. Since then....now having 2children and not just the one..it is very tight! I feel like the walls are closing in on me some days! Just help us to pray to make the right decisions!

I hope everyone is excited about Easter! Remember that Jesus is NOT dead. He is ALIVE!

Lord I am amazed by YOU!

During the Worship service this morning I had one of those moments where the song we were singing really spoke to my spirit. As we sang.."How wide, how deep, how great, is your love for me! Lord I am amazed by YOU!" I was reminded of my wonderful little Samuel. He will often say, "Mommy (or Daddy) I love you deep!" and we will respond "and I love you wide".
Out of a mouth of a babe words spoken isn't that just like our God! A little life lesson from a child that didn't hit me til during a praise and worship song.
No matter what we do, Jesus still loves us! He loves us deep and wide! How awesome is that?? I think it is pretty awesome myself! Often I fail HIM, but he never lets me down.

We finally got the long awaited snow....in March! I do hate that Ray is missing Jordyn's first snow. We haven't played in it yet. We did walk in it next door to my parents but that was all. I am looking forward to playing in it some tomorrow with the kiddos. Samuel is beside himself to go sledding!

Continue to pray for us and Ray as he is still in Germany!

Whew I am tired!

First of all let me say that I admire those single parents out there! How do you do it? It is very hard being mommy and daddy! Very exhausting! It has almost been a week since Ray has been gone. 3 1/2 more weeks to go! What a week too!!! Samuel had the stomach virus, THEN Thursday nite he fell out hurt his pinkie finger. We thought maybe it was sprung or maybe fractured. Friday we went to have it xray-d and thankfully it was just really bruised. Now it isn't even swollen anymore. I thought to myself....lets just let everything happen while daddy is gone.

Friday nite I went to a friend's church's lady mtg. It was nice to get out and away for a little while. I am so thankful and blessed to the friends and family that has checked up on us this past week.

Tomorrow starts out 3day fast for the month! I am going to be focusing on this tpr/adoption on Jordyn. I am believing for things to be accomplished on the 31st of March. Please agree with me!

I am really tired and my thoughts are running together so I am going to cut this short!

Be Blessed!

Samuel in his new toy bin.

Jordyn in her new toy bin...

Samuel @ his Soccer Practice.

Samuel @ first soccer practice

Day two almost behind us...

Ray is settled in Germany now. We have done pretty good so far with him being gone. Samuel has been affected more this time with his daddy being gone then in the past. He says over and over "I miss Daddy, It's gonna be a long week before I see him, We don't have a daddy anymore, I am sad, I miss daddy". Those are some of the random comments he will make. He has never really mentioned Ray being gone when he has been on these trips for work before.

Samuel hasn't been sick anymore since yesterday morning thank the Lord. However, he still hasn't really ate a whole lot. Which I guess is ok....he is drinking really well. He had his first Soccer practice tonite. He wouldn't eat before we left. Afterwards we stopped at MickeyD's...which he normally sollows whole. He didn't eat any fries and only ate half a nugget. Said he wasn't really hungry. At least he didn't get sick.

He did fairly well at Soccer....Except for wanting to use his hands, lol. We got in the car and he said..."Mommy I had great fun". Then started with the statements about his daddy again. This is going to be one long month.

It appears that our atty is staying on top of things trying to get all the paperwork together hoping that we can have the Adoption hearing March 31 after the TPR is granted. I am PRAYING that this all falls into place.

It has been 11months that we have had Jordyn. It is amazing how far she has come. Her and Samuel were singing in the backseat this morning on the way to preschool. I was just taking it all in. Then they would giggle! It was just the most precious sound. I even forgot that I was stressed five min. prior b/c we were running late. I just LOVE being a mommy and love being able to be at home with him. I know sometimes I fell like pulling my hair and get stressed....but I wouldn't tried this time for anything.

It is getting late. I am going to call it a nite. I plan on posting some recent pics tomorrow...So check back! :)